Mixed day...

Gonna be a strange one today....The last few days have been hectic, helping a friend find a new place to live, daughter has had a breast scare... so going to hospital with her , reassuring her, when I was sooooooo scared for her myself. Trying not to think about the ‘what ifs...’Had to finish some work for uni, and go see supervisor.... always scary, always waiting for them to turn round and laugh, and say ..'got ya, was a joke all the time, u not THAT clever'. Apparently it is something that many mature students, especially women feel.today is have my hair done day, usually a very relaxing thing...as it take my hairdresser hours... however, I have to attend a funeral today, of my youngest daughter’s Godmother. hard to explain here, but I use to belong to a church form many yrs, long story, but am not there now, have split with kids' dad, who does still attend the church. the Godmother was a lovely woman, but was also a member of the said church and when I left ex didn’t approve and really didn’t talk to me much after. don't think she ever forgave me. but she didn’t know the truth of the matter and I wasn’t prepared to explain. So why am I going you may ask, well my daughter has asked me too, she's 14 and wants her mum there with her. her dad will be there to, and am not looking forward to standing with him, as a family so to speak. the man makes my skin crawl. and there are the others there, who no longer talk to me... Oh the scarlet woman that I am. I ought to add I left this church and husband over 6 yrs ago, and have met and married Lou since then... but!So why am I going, because, daughter has asked, and the Godmother was an actually a decent woman, who took her role as Godmother very very seriously, and helped daughter a great deal. (And has made sure she continues to in the future).So will tell you more when I get back....See how I feel...